Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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